Dad, Writing, Sewing, Trust, and Singers
May 28, 2009They discovered my father did have a heart attack that was caused by a blood clot, but very little damage was done. He came home the Tuesday after he was admitted to the hospital and he’s doing fine – back to running errands, cutting the grass, exercising…The doctor told him to take two weeks off his job.
I have little else to say that would likely be of much interest to much of anyone. I’ve wanted to get back to writing stories but while I had ideas and inspiration, I had little motivation. But I recalled a story I started last year and never finished and decided to go back to that. I don’t remember enough of the details so I’m skimming what I wrote before I start writing again, but I think I’m over my writing block now.
I sewed a lot last month and some this one – a dress, two bodices, two shirts/chemises, two hats, two pouches. I’m working on a skirt and another bodice now. I should update my costume blog. I have quite a bit to add, but I need to take some pictures of separate items first (I have pictures of me wearing many of them combined, at the Renaissance festival, but I think I want them separate for my blog so I can do separate entries).
I’ve been thinking about trust lately and wondering how to learn to trust people in general and more specifically after bad experiences, and wondering how much I should allow myself to trust them, how much I should open up to them, etc. It’s difficult, because I’ve discovered that good communication is very important and that when you close everyone out, you become hardened, distant, and lonely. But figuring out how much and how to trust people when they could hurt you isn’t easy. My expectations of people have been significantly lowered and I don’t know if it’s unhealthy or not.
I’m not sure I actually meant to write about that. Oh well.
I am so glad Kris Allen won American Idol and not Adam Lambert (any comments defending Lambert will be deleted; you’re entitled to your music tastes and I to mine – post them on your own blog) due to both ethics and talent. I like Kris’s singing much better. Adam has a nice voice when he doesn’t sing so high, but he usually sounds creepy and/or like he’s screeching, and he creeps me out for other reasons.
Have an amazing rest of your life.
- WM
Glad your dad is feeling better, and I look forward to seeing pictures of your latest sewing endeavors.
Regarding trust—that’s a hard one. There are various schools of thought on that, as I’m sure you know. I have probably belonged to all of them at one time or another. My conclusion is that you can be “safe” and lonely, or you can be trustful and risk occasional betrayal/rejection. I have pretty good intuition and usually make up my mind quite quickly as to whether I should trust someone or not. This enables me to make friends quite quickly—a very important skill to learn as a missionary kid! However, I’d be the first to admit that I am not infallible. I have suffered some devastating betrayals, both as a teenager and as an adult. It’s still worth it though. I have a worldwide network of dear friends who have enriched my life immeasurably.